Been Scared..

A fact of life, a second though on my mind..
A weird end of day and night..
What the hell.Am I Doing? Is this right?
Why do I cry..?
Did it hurt? Did I got hurt?
Is that blood or a weird image?
Why all these questions unanswered?

Haven't slept in a few years, cried all the sleep off in my tears..
Watched as you all smiled, when I cried.
Always wanted to go to that One! bright light..
As I took pills to fall a sleep, hoped of never waking up again..
Wished a New day, to never start again.

Waking up, seeing myself again..
Hate that look in my eyes. Dark eyes with nothing wise..
Pain inside that everyone could seen on the outside
Scared of showing a goodside behind it, my brightside.
While walking though the school, eyes felt on my clothes..
A Corner as I sat down on the ground..
Sometimes people walked arround..
I started to think that my music was on surround sound.
So I put it out..

Felt alone without a little bit of a sound..
Watched the ground as a shadow grow..
Then came next to me, that gave me back some hope..
After a few hours, my glow starts to grow.

You'Learned'Me'Not'To'Be'Scared.To show myself yet.Still I Am.. Of life..



I've been scared, of what people think of me.. as a writer that always write sad stuff..(death, hell, hate, tears..and go on)
People got scared of me.. as I let them read my poems(or some other random text)..
Had been scared to talk to people I don't know, in the way I am, I always acted like a COMPLETE weirdo..In my eyes.. Not me..
Sometimes I even forget who I am.. Or actually who I was. Being crazy in my house with my Fam is normal, around my friends, is normal to..
But in school, never was.. Being my crazy me.. Now I start doing that, I kind of start to love myself again..
Hated myself the most off the time, how I looked, how I talked..Just how I am.. I hated myself..


(I can't understand reality, if people who are different have to die because some people can't have respect for differency..
I think I wanne live in a Fake world than.. Style is something that draw you

What a World, It's a Mess." IF you bully try to eat shit cuz it's the same shit that comes out of your mouth.. " ~ said by: VnAhI)

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