First True Love
First True Love
23/04/2016
It has been a week of many heartaches but also of much laughter and happiness. So this is what bittersweet feels like, I guess.
My first true love fell out of love with me. I hadn’t seen it coming, hadn’t seen any signs. I’m okay now though, in fact I’m happy. I, naturally, still think about our time together and how sad I am that that time is over, the things we shared will never happen again. We will at least remain friends, a small but heartwarming comfort. I’m lucky to have so many amazing friends, who have helped me get through this week. I was surprised by a few, who showed me more kindness than I thought I would ever receive from them. My fellow (future) geologists are some of the most surprising, crazy, funny, inspiring people( and/or drunkards) that I know. Truly making me laugh when tears were streaming down my cheeks. Taking care of me when I was at my lowest.
Now I find myself turning back to the things I’ve been neglecting for the past months. Things I love like music, singing, exercising (some may be surprised by this one), family and my personal goals. I feel so humbled right now and wanted to capture this moment so I could cherish it and take it with me through future heartbreaks and trials I may face in life. However bad your week starts, it can end completely happy in the knowledge that everything happens for a reason. You’re not in control and that is OK. Trust in the people you love, trust in yourself and trust in God.
Be hopeful. Be strong. Be weak. Above all, love unconditionally.
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I wrote this diary entry a week after my first serious relationship ended. I burned a copy of it to help myself let go. I wanted to always remember that heartbreak, take it and make myself stronger. This is the first time since then that I have read it. I am on a good basis with my ex right now but I still feel sadness sometimes. This entry definitely isn't the best writing I have ever done... But I am not going to edit it, as this is pure and raw, exactly how I felt at the time.
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