Confused love

since I knew you I felt connected to you. I was happy to get to know you and fall in love. I was just having a difficult period with myself that was reacting to you and there was a big fight. I still regret it every day and sometimes I cry for regret. I want you in my life as an ordinary friend because really means a lot to me. You really taught me a lot. I see you as a brother or how else to say. look a bit like a soulmate but you look different about it. I love you and trying to forget you hurts too much. I want to be happy and will do my best to forget you but my regret will remain every day