PERSONALITY:
I'll get to this give me a minute
APPEARANCE:
[FC: None, I'll just draw her someday lol + this needs rewriting gimme a minute]
Black bob that's now its natural color (probably, maybe with some extra black dye to even out the edges), forced to let that grow out after years of bleach damage to get her hair bright red (no more), intense pale blue eyes (close to gray?), thin nose with a slight bump on it that gives her a marble carving quality, very pale, heart shaped face, wolfish grin, laid-back attitude. Comes off as a bit intimidating, like a big predatory cat who is too lazy to attack you
Tall for a girl (178-180 cm or so?), lanky, flat as fuck lol, kinda unhealthily skinny (probably from drugs tbh, I don't think she's a diehard addict but I can't imagine her not using any substances) + has a more naturally androgynous build (probably from her Philippino heritage, shows here)
Oh yeah and is like 1/4th Philippino but this is usually not immediately realized because of her eyes (which have heavier, more visible lids, opposed to the monolids most South-East Asian people have + are a very light color), but it's noticable in some of her features (like her face shape's bone structure & her build, even though she's tall)
MENTAL HEALTH:
Bipolar disorder type 1 (full manic episodes (though they have a range - some are closer to hypomania), depressive episodes lack suicidality or self-loathing and display more as perpetual boredom and numbness + self-isolation & lack of interest in much of anything. She considers her manic self her "true" self, but feels she has to repress this self to a degree because she is so dangerously impulsive and thrill-seeking during her manic episodes. It's 100% bipolar disorder, but she views it as almost a "Jekyll & Hyde" sort of arrangement, but they're both her and she knows they're both her, just so jarringly different she has to use symbolism to explain herself). (also jekyll & hyde isn't actually about a "split personality" at all it's about disASSOCIATION of parts of identity, not DISSOCIATION from them, the book is literally just about an evil guy with a shape shifting potion, but okay)
She also has ASPD. Was diagnosed at 13-14 with conduct disorder for displaying some kind of continuous violence against others, must've been forcibly hospitalized at the time, and is now more functional and no longer hurts other people (nor does she break other laws much, unless she can reason with people that it's morally necessary). Still deals with practically the entire package though, just has learned to effectively manage her symptoms (lack of remorse (can cognitively empathize extremely well though, but again, it's a cognitive thing), still manipulative but now takes her compulsive lying to people she has no intention of being close to and no longer manipulates because she's trying to have emotional needs met or stir up shit, disregard for her personal safety (takes responsibility over other people's safety by not interacting with them altogether), impulsivity, irresponsibility in the workforce/school; struggles with thrill-seeking behavior such as pyromania, substance abuse, flirting with or provoking known felons). I'd say she
does have a strong moral compass, but it's not something emotion driven, more of a worldview she has. She doesn't
feel her compassion, but she does very strongly believe that innocent people should not be harmed and is willing to protect them (which is also why she consistently seeks out felons). I'd say her sense of justice is quite strong, she just can't be ragebaited about it lol.
Has some very early developmental trauma that must be responsible for her personality disorder. Combination of emotional neglect and physical abuse probably. She was taken by CPS when she was 8 or 9 so what happened before that is why she has ASPD now. But, again, she got out and doesn't really have much emotional baggage anymore. I'd say she's actually very happy and functional in her day to day life now, so her therapy worked.
Oh and she definitely has ADHD but is probably medicated for this. It's possible she has autism (based on the way she thinks; her interests are very intense, she has a disregard for social norms and likes to sincerely question them on a deep intellectual level, and is just intelligent in the way that a lot of autistic people are), but it's hard to tell because it could also just be ASPD symptoms and being highly intelligent (hoogbegaafd heeft geen goede Engelse vertaling? Ok I guess) in her case.
PAST:
Born an accident (possibly as a result to SA, otherwise probably sex work to pay for an addiction), lived in a highly unstable household (trailer trash kinda poor) where she was physically abused and otherwise almost entirely neglected, mother likely had severe mental health problems or an addiction, or both. Might've moved around different caretakers a lot to be rid of her. At 8 or 9 the government found out that she existed and she was taken away by CPS and given to a foster family. Some more moving around must have happened here when she was diagnosed with conduct disorder, but eventually she was adopted by someone very kind and nurturing who encouraged her to be her best self (at like 14-15). Spent some time in a mental institution but was saved more or less by said new caretaker, who helped her grow into not a serial killer in the making, lol. Guy must've been RICHHHH. She's kind of spoiled now (doesn't need a job or anything to get around and can get into whatever prestigious school she wants) but you wouldn't be able to tell from how she lives because she just rents a shitty appartment in some big city like New York and lives a chaotically impulsive life. Must've studied criminal psychology but stopped grinding after that achievement even if she needs to have another degree to actually work as a detective. Uses her knowledge for whatever she personally wants, doesn't care for "legal" investigation (whatever that means smh)
HOBBIES, SKILLS & TALENTS:
Great criminal psychologist and psychoanalyst, which is also her main hobby
Probably has a bunch of random skills not worth listing
I assume she can hack, pick locks, and whatever she needs to be nosy
I think she probably has a shitty tumblr blog and instagram where she's moderately popular. Internet micro celebrity because she's just really charismatic
Oh yeah good at fashion
Must be a talented chess player, I think this is probably one of her biggest hobbies honestly
Great public speaker
I think she's probably a painter - can't imagine her without creative hobbies, but aside from opinion pieces I can't imagine her writing. Buuut she likely does do A LOT of said opinion pieces and is good at writing them. Just no fiction, don't think she daydreams enough for it.
Apt at doing research
Quick with picking up new languages, but also neglects them enough to forget them again
Good at chemistry (think building bombs), would be very good at science if she were taught
EXTRA:
Likes: Strawberries & cherries lol, stalking murderers, blabla
Dislikes: blabla
Addictions: Idk if she's an addict but probably does coke or meth when manic and then goes sober when not manic
Perfume notes: Strawberry jam, nectarine, birch tar, tobacco, blood, civet, petrichor, dragon blood resin
- is probably on the pill or fully sterilized, I could imagine her knowing she doesn't ever want kids very early
- rich enough to "fix" her slightly crooked nose & teeth but doesn't care to, not insecure about them
- i think she's really into sugary treats that are a little too sweet
- caffeine doesn't energize her nor keep her awake but she still drinks energy drinks because she kind of likes the nervousness it induces (+ the sugar does help somewhat)
- probably used to have another name before she was adopted by her primary caregiver, but does not consider this "hers". might have an additional surname that's not the one from her biological mother, but would keep onto domingo too i think.
- might have nipple piercings or something lol. and probably has multiple piercings in both ears + a bellybutton piercing. possibly a nose, lip, or eyebrow piercing.
- likes 80s/90s/00s easy listening music and new wave, postpunk, darkwave - that kinda thing. probably also loves massive attack, portishead, and other bands with similar sounds. also blues, probably
Probably don't need the direct images for these but while I'm lazing around in terms of layouts I'd like to remind myself that these are priority quotes (that aren't mine) (she probably will have several that are because it feels unfinished otherwise, no grasp on her way of thinking/speaking etc) (some are fun to keep as memes though lol I'll probably link them)






The way Mara looked at me was distracting. Even now, she had that dullness of sangfroid in her eye; like she had known all along. That pixie-like mischief she'd had before had waned, her lips no longer curled. Instead I saw the being beneath: bored, cold,
ominously aware.
❤︎❤︎❤︎❤︎❤︎

BIG ASS QUOTE HERE
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Birth chart houses for reference so I won't forget:
1st house: Aquarius
2nd house: Aquarius
3rd house: Aries
4th house: Taurus
5th house: Gemini
6th house: Leo
7th house: Leo
8th house: Leo
9th house: Libra
10th house: Scorpio
11th house: Sagittarius
12th house: Aquarius
(+ Scorpio MC + Scorpio Venus (10th house) + Sagittarius Mercury (11th house) + Leo Mars (8th house)) (yes I'm trying to puzzle her entire birth chart more or less)